This is really only to prove a point...

Rolf came to get me. I'm sure Kat won't run away now...

What she is doing is hiding in the hospital room so Jillian can't get her. She's dyed her hair brown again, and she's making everyone call her Bonnie.

So. I'm not entirely encouraged.

Hi, by the way.

I am here now! Someone thought Tamm might need me, and if he didn't, I couldn't be here.

Alessa, I know you'd want me to stand with you. I also know I can't. It means so much to me that you would want that. Know I'll be there, anyway. Watching. I'm so happy you're marrying Kat, Alessa. I could think of no one better, really. It warms my heart.

Tamm. I'll be waiting for you when you get home.

I can't imagine how Thomas does it. I don't want to go. I'm terrified of it. I want to stay here with all of you, even though I know I'm going back to a nice place with lovely people...I can see you all and watch over you and eventually (it better be in a DAMN long time) I'll be with you again. But I like it here. My nieces are here, and I can hold my little Vincent again. I can paint and dance with Kat and cuddle with Alessa. Kali and I had a desk chair race (she beat my arse, little nipper...). There's such wonderful things in this world and I'm going somewhere where I don't get to have them. Facing it once is truly horrifying. How can someone face that so many times. Especially when he has a relationship with someone here.

It's a darn good thing he's with an angel...

I want to have sex. I didn't do it often enough when I was alive. Because I got pregnant once. There's something I've told one person ever. Seems less important now that I've been murdered. And it's not like I can get pregnant now!

Anyway. Anyone know anyone single, willing to sleep with me? I probably sound like a slut? I'm not, I just can't have a relationship. And I'd like to feel that again before I go back...places.

Today I ate nothing but chocolate. It was wonderful.

My parents came over today and I had to hide in Bonbon's closet! Which is horrid. And I'm glad that Kat dragged them away because I swear Alessa might have said something...

How can I explain to my best friend that I really am dead and she'll have to say goodbye to me or resign me to an eternity of pain?

Stupid, lopsided Aurelia. I require ice cream and cuddles right very now.

Have you had your mutant children yet, whore? What will you do if they get infected by your disgustingly diseased roommate?

I started painting something for the show in less than 2 weeks now. I don't think I want to sell it though. I want to show it, but it's personal and the thought of it hanging on someone else's wall is a little odd.

After I finish my painting for the day I am going to take a walk. It clears my head.

I'm going to be an aunt. My parents are stupid. I love my new house and my housemates. People seem to like my art. Seeing my Kali tomorrow. At Kat's right now, making her feel better. Classes going well.

Oh yes, and I love Audrey Hepburn!

I think that's it!